Unfortunately I have started 2 blogs in the past, one I left off and one I've lost.  It's unlikely that anyone will read this, but I have felt inspired to write.  I am trying to post on daily events of inspiration showing Christ's evidence in my life and introspections of human reactions.  I am a pediatrician that works with a large group of underprivileged patients that leads me to frequently ask questions about the human condition.
     Today I have been wondering about interactions between ourselves.  Why do we get so nervous being around others.  Why do we crave closeness and yet find a hard time achieving it.  Well at least some of us do.  I find there is a distance between me and others - partly why I am writing this - to forge a connection with others of a like mind, but to meet others that I would otherwise not be able to meet.  Also why I am not posting on Facebook but a more anonymous source.
       I feel the light of Christ in my life, so why do I still hold back.  As I was sitting in our sunday school class we were discussing effects of the fall of Adam - I had several comments to say and yet held back.  Inside I had a sense of agitation and still do.  As I said a prayer asking for this agitation to calm I felt inspired to write.
      Maybe in today's world it is just so easy to be distant from others - from elementary to college we are placed in groups - we are labeled - part of us wants to break away from that label and just be me, but there are good things to be defined as or by.  When I was young, I would go to my grandmother's house and she would have visitors or she would have a quilt on and a number of women would come and chat together - I think they worked out their marital problems, child rearing problems and I think these visits/quilts were medicinal against anxiety and depression.  When do we get to have an in depth conversation with others.  In this fast pace world we meet so many and yet know so few.  I know in my neighborhood some of the people seem to have forged strong friendships and occasionally I start but don't seem to get that far.  Maybe it's just winter speaking: stuck inside, not communicating with others.
     Anyway - thoughts on the inner self and how we interact with others.
Today I wonder - tomorrow I am going to notice these interactions and the hand of God in my life and post