Supergirl

I know some of you are wondering if I'm still alive - yes - indeed.  This summer was so crazy - a good crazy.  We had visitors for over 3 weeks, Kyler went to Utah for 3 weeks, we went to Iceland and then school starting back up and trying to get back into routine - well I just forgot to write.

Pictures of iceland for this blog - will catch up with other summer photos later.

I have sooooo needed to though.  My mind has been so full.  I had so much to do one day I started writing a list but instead of finishing the list my mind just seemed to be spinning so I wrote it out like I felt it was happening in my head - whatever "to do" popped in my head I wrote it in a random place on the paper and when I saw all the words all over in a mess on the paper I realized how scattered my thoughts had become.  I look forward to this blog to organize those thoughts, to rein them in.  

As I was thinking this morning, wisdom came from the strangest place.  The kids and I have been watching super girl - strong and brave like superman, but a lot of the episodes focus on kindness, hope, and love.  

I have been struggling with the do's and don'ts of the teenage years.  Wanting to let them expand their wings but so scared that they may fall.  My job doesn't lend itself to a lot of trust in the teenage department, as I see the ramifications of the oopses.  In this episode of Super Girl the world is about to end because the human race is so full of fear that they are easily overcome and controlled - Super Girl sends out a broadcast of hope and in doing so releases them all from the debilitating mind control.  As this scene replayed itself in my head this morning, I couldn't help think this is what Jesus does for us.  We are sometimes lost and afraid, we don't know what to do and we can be controlled by our fear instead, but when we look to Christ he fills our life with light and hope.  Sometimes I focus so much on my to do list that I lose the sweet music of the gospel of christ - I don't live with just a hope of a better future but a hope in Christ that he knows me, he knows my children, he loves us and in the grand scheme of things everything is going to be okay.  I was maybe stuck in a little teenage rut of development myself, living in my mind short sightedly instead of seeing things from a more eternal perspective.  These years are but a small moment and here for our benefit so we can learn and grow.  I realized that my "parenting style" had become so full of the fears and the negative what ifs that I was missing out on the hope and love.  I can embrace now as a moment to learn, to laugh, to share, and to hope through Christ for a better future.  

I am determined today to enjoy the relationships in my path - to spend time connecting to those around me and not be ruled by to do's, what ifs or worries.  The future is bright, all shall be well.

I hope you all have a great day too, that you can find whatever message of hope you need to push forward with a steadfastness of faith and love.